Thursday, October 27, 2011

I feel like a jerk...

I HATE being so torn for no reason. Especially when I blog about it and had no intention of sharing those feelings with the Mr.... SHAME ON ME!

I'm a dumb bitch sometimes... I'm letting my feelings of inadequacy color my relationship. When really, if I communicate what I need and want to the Mr, he'd be happy to oblige. I look back and all I can think is
"Who's the whiny bitch now? Huh?!"

It's stupid.
I'm happy.
Why can't I just let it be...

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Yeah.... I'm greedy

I've never believed in forever. It's sad really.... but I just dont. Nothing is ever guaranteed. It almost makes me feel guilty. In fact its forefront in discussions with the Mr. He's in it forever, and I can't commit. I'd never leave, or do ANYTHING that would jeopardize our relationship, but I'm just not completely settled either. We've been together just over 5 years, and he is amazing. I love him deeply, but I just can't shake the feeling that there is something I'm missing...
Yeah, yeah... I know. Dumb huh?
The Mr is so good to me, and the kids... I have never felt the way he makes me feel. So why do I feel.... incomplete, I guess.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Hall pass

Ok, so I've been thinking about the movie Hall Pass... you know where dude gets a week pass to do whatever he wants away from his wife without consequence. I have never actually seen the move, but have been thinking about the premise, the "What would I do?"

I don't know that I would want a whole week, maybe to just go back in time to my glory days for a few... I can't see that lifestyle appealing now. No, I was wrong, It is appealing but for a completely different reason. To not know as much as I do now, or care... that would be freaking awesome...

I can pin point the moments i'd go back to... the dangerous days, doing things with people I had no business being with..
"why?"you say ..
Honestly I can't put my finger on it. I love where I am and who I am, but to go back to that place, wow, the possibilities are endless.

I feel like an ass even thinking it.
If I had a hall pass... consequence and guilt free... I'd use it.

Would you?

Here is a link from Reuters about this.

But really...

Friday, October 21, 2011

blog stalk Friday and Friday funny

First check out this bad bitch 

then on to FRIDAY FUNNY with 

First is a product my sister un law sent me... She is a vendor relations specialist at an RV parts distributor

This the offical description from the manufacturer's website

"The Gota'Go™ Personal Care Device is a concealed, catheter-like device that is worn under clothing and enables males to urinate in situations where a bathroom break is not possible.
The Gota'Go™ Personal Care Device is similar to a jockey-strap and has an elastic cotton waistband (sized Small, Medium, Large, and Extra Large), fitted with hip or buttocks straps that supports an under-crotch support similar to that offered by a pair of briefs.
The male's penis is inserted into a soft molded rubber or plastic sheath, the end of which would open into a small-diameter, pliable plastic or rubber surgical tube. This outflow tube is equipped with a synthetic round-the-thigh strap fitted with Velcro closures, surgical rubber or plastic.
The Gota'Go™ Personal Care Device could be worn on either leg. The upper end of the receptacle bag is fitted with a one-way release valve for emptying the accumulated contents. "

That shit is just weird.... i wish your pee bag to explode lazy fucker!! Jeeze!
 i also found these weird products....


Thursday, October 20, 2011

You can't make this shit up.....

Ok, so I'm driving down the road on my way home from work, yes I work now that's a different post to be posted differently, and I come to a stop light just out side the town I work in, and this dude is sitting in his car, on the side of the road, Windows down..... seriously..... going to town on him self.... I looked over and was like weird... then faced the light when it really sank in what he was doing.... I had to look back to check and sure as shit, he's wackin it in the front seat of his car waiting for the light...."OOOOHHHHEEEMMMMGGGEEEE!" I said, he looked at me and grinned.... gross.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

What happened while i wasn't here

Alright BITCHES,
Its been a crazy few weeks, and I feel i have completely neglected my blog:( too fucking bad, Life happened really fast..

So this is what happened while i was ignoring you,
The MR, decided it would be a good idea to stop taking multiple prescriptions for his back at the same time, while this would seem harmless, some meds you cant just stop taking, it will make you sick, and crazy, but mostly really really sick.. So i have been dealing with a giant angry manchild for the last week and i am happy to say the worst of the detox is behind us.

My phone got busted... into a million pieces pretty much, it sucks. I should have my replacement tomorrow. I did enjoy the break from technology. now i want it back!

My daughter lost an important woman in her life last Thursday, Man that sucked. It still sucks, but i can be thankful for her life and the lessons we learned from her. My Mr's aunt passed away the following day... wow, when is enough enough??

The little dude turned 9 on Monday!! I cannot believe it, he is getting so big. I thank god for him everyday, he's been fighting against the odds since conception, and he's amazing. I love you little dude!

Oh yeah, and then there has been the construction around our hose, making it impossible to get in and out of our driveway, to take a nap, or have things hanging on our walls... Also I love not having water, 6 out of the last 10 days our water was shut off, or it was off then on, or there dirty water coming out my faucets cause the geniuses working on the street have busted two separate water pipes twice each.


Monday, October 10, 2011

On a Serious note...

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” ~ Washington Irving
This past week has been emotional to say the least.
A friend was lost, my daughter lost a mentor, the world lost an angel on earth.

Ducky was the most loving woman i have ever met, and when i say loving i mean, i have never ever ever met anyone who gave love so freely and unconditionaly in my life and I probably never will come across one again.

In the short amount of time she graced us with her presence was enough to change the lives of every one she came across. Always quick with a smile, a prayer, a hug or a kind word. To her, EVERYONE was the same, and every one deserved love, for some, it was the only love they ever had. She never judged. After reading stories from people she touched,
i cannot help but to wish that i can one day live like she did,
to give my self freely and comlpetely,
 to love with all my heart.

Ducky left behind an amazing husband and two little ducklings... my thoughts and love are with them now.
Dont ever forget to tell the ones you love, that you love them.
No one ever knows what tomorrow holds.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Shit I hate Sunday...

Its that time again!!

LAST MINUTE PLANS: bitch, dont get pissed at me for your poor planning.
PEOPLE WHO DONT RETURN CALLS: Ass wipe, you are running a bussines. Call a bitch back.
NOT HAVING ANY ENERGY: this cold is kicking my ass
FIGHTING WITH THE MR: its almost ALWAYS over the same shit

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