Saturday, January 28, 2012

Do you like Pina~Coladas...

This one has been in my head for a while... weeks, 
IF NOT MONTHS 
in fact..

Here is some past posts to catch you up on  WHY exactly this has been stuck in my head


Back to the title..
Do you like Pina~Coladas..

you know that song by Rupert Holmes?

Its about a guy who is bored with his wife...
unfulfilled..

"I was tired of my lady, we'd been together too long.
Like a worn-out recording, of a favorite song."




but he didn't realize it wasn't just him , 
and when he was looking for more.

After responding to a personal ad ...

"So I waited with high hopes, then she walked in the place.
I knew her smile in an instant, I knew the curve of her face.
It was my own lovely lady, and she said, "Oh, it's you."
And we laughed for a moment, and I said, "I never knew".."


he found it
in his wife.



I've said it before 
and 
things change..

this song is so spot on to the previous posts,
It's about finding the time it our busy lives,
to remember,
 and
to rediscover 
our love


Its not always easy, 
but it's 
ALWAYS 
worth it

Friday, January 27, 2012

Thursday, January 26, 2012

oh shit, she's been thinkin...

Ever have those moments when reflecting on your life and think 
"HOW THE FUCK DID THIS HAPPEN"

Its something i wonder often.
How the fuck did my life turn into this??
(def not complaining, i love who I am and where I am)

Looking back at all the choices, good and bad
looking at all the life events that have led to this moment..
i wonder,
Why the fuck haven't i been
  committed  
given an award for most creative breakdowns.

I'm not really crazy, just intense.
Like a chemistry experiment, one wrong measurement or chemical and 
BOOM
I blow the fuck up.
Or,
  i used to.

I've calmed down,
Kind of.

Where the fuck is this post going.....

hmm...



ANYWHORE

Ive been thinking...

i need one of those digital voice recorders.. 
cause thats the thing about RANDOM Thoughts,
I forget them..
well not really, 
but when im thinking them i usually talk them out 
with my self 
Out loud..

Even now,
 i'm doing it, 
RIGHT NOW
this second, 
well this second my time
not when you are reading it..
but maybe at that second i am reading this again too..
and talking about it, 
to myself..

anyways
i got side tracked..

Do you ever wonder 
"how the fuck did i get here?"








Saturday, January 21, 2012

Ass hat strikes again!

Forgive me if the formatting is off, Blogger mobile blows like that.....

Sorry for lack of posts lately, seems like I had the snark knocked outta me:(

ANYWHORE

The Mr is wearing his ass hat again... Stay tuned.. that always makes for good material:)

Monday, January 9, 2012

Skankville Overlord


Yes

 that's what i call the little town i live in... 
for those of you who live here.. you get it.

things i was doing instead of blogging:
Dealing with life.. 
I hate that shit. 
Can i just live in my blog?
oh yeah, thats right, i got 
AN AWARD!!
THANK YOU 
FOR

THAT MEANS I GET THE POWER TO CHANGE THREE THINGS...
ANY DAMN THINGS I WANT!!
that shit is hard and i have decided to take it to the streets and turn this award into.....
dun
dun 
DDDUUUUNNNN....
a series.
ha,
 i am the Overlord.
i make the damn rules.

Question is..
If you were the overlord what would you choose?
Leave a comment below, on my facebook, or find me on twitter.

Best changes get a big surprise:)





Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Why the unlaws aren't inlaws

Im not married...
 Some days this truly pisses me off,
 some days its depressing, 
some days I'm SO fucking glad we aren't.

May 9th, 2010
That is the day I picked, the location was perfect, 
My dad said he wanted to see me get married, 
the wedding he always wanted to see... 
This was decided In October of '09
My dads cancer was in remission, he was working, life seemed to be getting better for us.
The MR and I talked and talked about it. 

Then he told me NO, 
glad i hadn't actually gone and paid the deposit...
We (namely me) were deflated. 
But it was still ok.
 My dad was still healthy.

My dad's cancer returned with a vengeance in March 2010..
Then  I got fucking pissed. 
My dad could be walking me down the damn isle in two months.
But because the mr said NO 
its not going to happen.
I suggested a little family ceremony, no extras...
Still no.

When my dad passed i got so ANGRY with the MR.
I felt like he stole that moment from me.
I completely understand his reasons for saying no, the logic behind his feelings.
I wish he understood the emotions behind mine.


I was talking to a good friend about this recently, 
about how much actual anger I was holding, 
and not just for the mr, 
for the daughters who take advantage of having a dad to be there for them, 
who choose to cut them out, 
who choose not to involve them.
My new years resolution it to try to forgive that anger.
I carry it like a led weight.











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