Tuesday, February 21, 2012

He's got his ass hat on again...

I've said it before, and i will say it again....
The Mr is a crazy hard worker

I don't have job,
that pays $$
I have a job,
I work 24 hours a day 7days a week
I am 

What little cash I do get goes into running our house,
you know, 
the basics.
food, gas, toothpaste, deodorant, toilet paper, paper towels, cleaning supplies, and the kids extras that they need.
That is totally an acceptable way to spend my money.

That said,
I don't EVER ask for extra cash for something, 
or anything,
that I want.
I want a new pair of sneakers, 
 kids out grew theirs,
I need a new pair of pants cause mine are too big,
my kid just out grew theirs.
And it just keeps happening.
no big deal,
I am the mom, 
I am so completely happy to put my wants and needs aside 
so they can have what they need and want first.
That is exactly what i signed up for:)

On the rare occasion I want something 
for me/ myself ,
bad enough to 
Actually ASK
the MR for extra,
when i know the kids have absolutely
they could need or want
it is so frustrating to hear him say 
I do not ask often,
And if i do ask,
Its for something i really really want.
It would have been shrugged with everything else 
I thought I needed or wanted. 

If I spent a small fraction of what he did 
on himself and his
I would feel selfish,
and my kids would have even more.

Time to take the 

I can just give up 
cause really 
I'm not that important to him anyways

Just sayin...